Not meant to be. (Memoirs of a random teenager- 1)

You realise that you don't lose people. You lose the relation you shared with them and the trust and bond between the two. You look back at the memories you shared with the person which were bittersweet in nature and realised how hard you tried to make it work. But it's not always our fault. Some people are just not meant to be. 

We don't look at each other anymore. Even if we do, our eyes find each other and quickly move away. We keep seeing each other yet we totally ignore each other. Why, I don't know. Maybe you don't know that I care or maybe you just don't care. But I refuse to believe the alternative. The little hope that you do care is the only thing that keeps me going, you see.

So I'll just believe that you don't know I care. That's little more closer to the truth and makes it much more easier for me. Cause not being able to talk to you, makes me unable to enjoy even the best of days. Sad. I've always wanted to make sure that I would be the only one responsible for everything in my life. And here you are, proving me wrong once again, showing that you can control my emotions too. 

Maybe there was no relation between us, maybe there was. I don't know. All I know now is, sometimes it doesn't matter even if you try everything to keep it going. Sometimes you just have to let go. Believe that you were not meant to be, because thinking anything else just hurts you more.